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80's Art Piece

Found this on tumblr.com

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Michael Todd

Thought it was a BEAUTIFUL art piece.

Temporary Home

Isaiah 40:31

"Those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength,

they will soar on wings like Eagles" 

Isaiah 40:31

Over the Edge

Over the Edge, by Akon.



Do not ever forget you can make it through anything in life.
God is by your side to help you.
Do not lose hope.

Suicide

Here is a new picture I found off the site of a suicide convention.

Every year people get together for the Annual International Survivors of Suicide day.

At the convention people share their expericences of dealing with a loss, due to suicide.

I feel I should attend next time, November 17th 2012 and I encourage any who would want to be a part of it. It is on a Saturday, contact me if you would like more information.

13ladybug@bellsouth.net
(My dad made me this email when I was 10)

Is Suicide the new Cancer?

I just finished my next article. It is about suicide and my journey through the pain.

Well, here it is...

Suicide is now the third leading cause of death among 15-24 year olds. Suicide takes 30,000 Americans annually and many more people attempt suicide. 50% of all suicides are done by firearm.

Why? Why the increase in suicide deaths, especially in the age group many at GSC fall into.

The numbers are puzzling because many feel as if there young adult life were the prime moments of their life.

However, at a young age many plans may go astray, leaving many in a depressed state.

Dr. Joy Evans, a counselor at GSC said, “Hormones are high during those years and they are very passionate about life and their hopes and dreams. Sometimes they do not turn out the way you want and it causes moments of despair and in those moments their can be suicidal thoughts.”

Dr. Evans also said, “In younger years there is not a sense of history, therefore students do not feel they can work through the depression and there is a sense of hopelessness.”

I was faced with some of the challenges mentioned by Dr. Evans when I was just 16 years old.

The depression all started because m doctor told me I needed to lose around 20 pounds to be at an ideal weight. I took the statement to the extreme and lost 35 pounds in three months.

All I wanted was to feel accepted by my friends and family. I felt worthless because my goals of acceptance were failing.

Everyday I asked myself why I was a failure, why I could not be perfect, and why my life seemed worse than before.

Depression was sinking in more and more, everything felt so hopeless, like my life would never be perfect. I was too much of a failure to reach any goals I had.

The illness was taking over my life day by day. It consumed my every move, my every breath. I was falling, fast.

I was slowly moving into isolation, ignoring my other friends, ignoring my family and all their questions. I felt I did not deserve anyone around me, I did not deserve my friends and my loving family.

I caved about 6 months into my depression and attempted suicide. However, the plan failed and I told no one what I did.

A week later I tried again, and thought it was working. I had taken a dose of 20 different types of medications. I threw up all night and became fatigued and dizzy.

I thought it was the end so I wrote a letter to my mother, father, brother and my best friend. I knew this would be my last night.

Luckily I awoke the next morning feeling very ill. I pulled myself out of bed and made my way to school, still feeling as if I might die.

Eventually I told my mother what I did during the day and she took me to the hospital, where they transferred me to Summit Ridge, a facility for people with all sorts of problems, including mine.

My organs began to fail and my stomach was eating its insides. I was put on a special diet and they stabilized my organs. They were functioning again and I was alive. Now all that was left was to finally face my problems.

During my stay at Summit Ridge, my father cried, hard, for the first time around me. It was very hard to see that and I knew then I needed to stop terrorizing my family.

After a week I was let out of the hospital and now I love the life I live. What I did was not worth what the consequences could have been and I am very lucky to still be alive.

Suicide is not the answer to any of the problems you may face and many people are around to help you through them, including the counselors at GSC.

If you need any help with your problems, contact them and set up an appointment. It is a very easy process that takes only minutes.

The counseling office is located in the student center near the student life office and every counselor is there to help you through anything.

Today's Accomplishments

Today I was woken up by a phone call.

It was my boss asking me to come into work. 

The time was 8:30. 

I told her I would come in for her. 

Bryan called and said he could not come in. 

He was getting trained by Candace. 

She is the 2nd high boss of our store. 

It goes:

               Jeff

              Candace

              Christina

So bryan really missed out.

I was really confused because he is a really good worker, so I am not sure why he did not come in. 

But I took the shift and met Candace for the first time today. 

She is really nice and laid back.

I think she likes me. 

I know Jeff likes me because he told me, talked to me about a lot of different things, it was nice. 

And Christina also says he likes me a lot.

So that is nice to hear. 

But Candace is hard to read.

Like I have no clue what she is thinking. 

It is really bothersome because I can always tell what people are thinking. 

 But oh well. 

I was exhausted when I finally got off work at 5. 

And I think someone at work has a ccrush on me. 

He is not a bad guy, but he is 28. 

That might be a little old for me. 

But I dunno if I feel it would ever work. 

Things will work out if they are meant to be though. 

I hope today was fantastic for you. 

The weather was beautiful! 

Tumblr Picture

ymutate blogged on tumblr.
http://www.ymutate.tumblr.com/post/18337759652/beta-version-aquarium-screen-saver-circa-1925

beta version aquarium screen saver, circa 1925

Paul Klee (1879-1940) Fish Magic. 1925

HeartFelts

Check this site out.
All the products are hand-made and hand-stitched.

Here are some examples of the creativity.

PostSecret

Found some great pictures and sayings from a blog site, www.postsecret.com
check it out.

U*SPACE GALLERY

My sister-in-law makes felt items.
Called HeartFelts!
They are all beautiful products with excellent touches of vintage art and filled with fabrics of gorgeous patterns, some are from the 60's!
I love them and so will you.
You all should definitely check out the event!
The location is in Atlanta, GA.
And it is going to be a great event.

Not only does the event inculde my sister-in-laws products, but the event includes other artist items.

Check out their stuff and the event calendars.

http://www.i-heart-felts.blogspot.com/
http://www.johnsdynart.com/
http://www.uspacegallery.com/upcomingevents.html
http://www.atlantaplanit.com/events/event.php?eid=47429

Sins

One of my main goals in life is to live everything through God.

However, I am not always successful in this path.
I have my vices, I make my sins.

Lucky for us though our God is a forgiving God.
Don't ever forget that.

It is in our nature to sin.
He understands.

He loves us no matter what.
And he always will.

Thank you Lord for everything you do for the people on Earth.

Today

Today was rough.
I had an interview at 3, at Khols.
I do not know what to do if I get the job because I really want it.
But there is Five Guys...
What do I do?
I really want the job at Khols.
Then I worked today at 5.
I finished around 9.
I close tomorrow.
I am just very tired.

Only God knows.
And he knows best.
His will be done.


Goodnight.

Savior Please

A song by Josh Wilson.

If you need the Lord in your life,
Listen to this song.

You feel like you're falling,
And failing every second.

But the Lord is there,
To catch you if you fall.

Where is the school spirit

I am on the newspaper staff at Gainesville State College and my new upcoming article is about the school spirit of GSC. Here is what I have so far :)

Where is the school spirit?

Michelle Wiggle

924245403@gsc.edu

     No matter what school you go to, college life is one of the most important aspects.

Students make decisions to go to colleges because of the college life they provide, the school spirit, the pride of being a student there.

     Many students view GSC as a 13^th grade, a school to get through classes, just a school to finsish as fast as possible.

     However, GSC has more to offer for their students. There may not be “real” sports, not as many  clubs and no greek life, but GSC is a unique place in its own.

     I still ask myself, do students really want more spirit? Do they have time to participate? Is there time for more student life?

     Chris, a former North Georgia college student, said, “The first thing I noticed about GSC was the lack of school spirit, students seem to only view GSC as a 13^th grade, a school to finish as fast as they can. What seems to go unnoticed is how unique the school really is.”

     He continues to say, “The biggest adjustment for me is probably the attendance policy here. At North Georgia professors do not care if you come to class or not, but GSC professors really care. They care if you pass or fail, they want to see you succeed.

     An anonymous GSC student said, “What makes GSC unique is all the different people. Many people commute so they come from all over the place.”

     If students view the college as a 13^th grade, then why do students come to GSC?

    I found the answer from talking to all the different students. Students come to GSC, because they need a place to get an education while dealing with other things in their busy lives.

     Students come to GSC because they need a second job to take care of their 3-year-old son. The bills are pilling up by the second, the utilities, the rent, the daycare, it is all adding up and you need a place for relaxation and a place for hope towards your future.

     Therefore, that should be enough for students to have school spirit, to have pride in our great college. To say, yes I have an education and at the same time I took care of my baby and worked two jobs in order to pay the bills.    

Crowded Thinking

Today I thought alot about my future.
I live with my mom currently,
But I want to move out on my own.
I do not know where yet,
Or if I want to be alone or with my brother.
I don't know how to make my mother understand.
And I do not know if I am really ready.

I have an interview for Khols Friday.
If I get the job I won't know what to do.
I want two jobs,
But my mom says thats too much.

Confusion clouds my brain,
I cannot quit thinking about everything.

All that is left is prayer
And sleep.

Strong Tower

Strong Tower
By: Kutless

The Lord will be your strong tower.

The Lord

We are here for the Lord,
The Lord is not here for us.

Start serving him today.

Pray for a closer relationship with him.
Maybe volunteer at the closet church.

Becoming closer to the Lord and getting reborn is a beautiful feeling.

Beauty

Today is filled with beauty.

The sun is out,
Our daffodils are blooming,
Birds are chirpping,
And it finally fills like springtime weather.

I am off to work at 5p.m. until 9 p.m.
And get to eat another delicious burger after my shift.
I am still in training so I am not getting as many hours as I would love to have.
I am hoping I can start working longer shifts,
Even though I am sore from standing all day,
I am just not used to it yet.

All morning I have been working on studying and homework.
I wish I could just take a break.
But I am still going strong and I hope to finish early.

The Lord has blessed us with an amazing day,
Get out in it!

May the Lord answer all your prayers.

Challenge of the Night

Express yourself through some kind of art.

Any kind of way to express yourself.

Expressing Yourself

I love to express myself through art.
You can see all my emotions in each thing I create.

It is very healthy to express yourself through something.
Writing,
Painting,
Crafts,
Jewelry,
Felt,

Anything you can think of,
Create it!

Challenge for the Day

Do something to serve the Lord today,

and

Tell someone about your relationship with God.

Five Guys, Burgers and Fries

My first day at work was yesterday.
It went great, I felt like I did a good job, I kept up most of the time.
I did the fries the whole time.
I ate some and they were delicious.
I did not burn ANY!
But some were undercooked..
Someone called and complained but everyone told me not to worry
and Brian said he's seen all of them and they look very cooked.
Like perfectly cooked.
It was nice when he told me how good I was doing.

But anyways, I work again today, at four.
Can't wait to see what I am doing!


I hope everyones day is going great.

Disney Memories

I remember when I first laid eyes on Disney World with my father by my side.

I was eight when we began going every Spring Break.
It was always the best vacation I ever took.

We have tons of memories, like the first time I rode Rockin' Roller Coaster. I was so scared. And the picture taken on the ride, we both look amazing and funny.
My eyes are closed and he is laughing.
How we always were together on the rides, even Space Mountain.

I miss these days.
I miss my father.

But I cannot look back,
only foward.

What If?

What if I could've saved him?
What if he was only a minute earlier, maybe then the wreck wouldn't happened?
What if I was 30 seconds later, I would've been in a wreck?
What if my life was different?
What if something happens?
What if I die tomorrow? What if tonight is my last?

We must stop playing the What If game.

Life is second to second.
Not a.m or p.m.
Only second by second.
Do you live your life second by second
Or do you look at life as a whole, a challenge?
Are we going to make our life something to hide behind
And just be?

Answer these questions
And your life can be two very different ways.

Only you can decide.

How much longer can you hide beneath the blanket?
How much longer can you hide behind sin?

We must rise no matter how we get there.

The only way is through God,
Living life through God.

Everyone fears death,
But we cannot live forever here on earth.

Rainy Days

Rainy days are not to be seen as gloomy.
Whenever it rains,
The Lord is showering us with
His love.

Although the rain is wet and cold,
The rain helps the beauty of the earth grow.
The flowers, the grass, the trees,
everything with an ounce of beauty
Loves the rain.

Therefore whenever we think of a rainy day,
Think of all the beautiful nature growing
And the Lord, our God, pouring us with his love.

Fresh Grounded Faith Event

I was not going to share my experiences with anyone until my mother and I went to a Fresh Grounded Faith event.
We both immediately fell in love with Michael O'Brien, a Christian singer and pianist. During the break, the second day of the event, I decided I wanted to get one of his CD's. I walked up and he was humbly helping people with purchases.
I noticed a book on the table that related to my life of depression and difficultly. I read over the book and then noticed the author was Sandra Heidi Anne. Having no idea who the author was I asked Michael himself. He told me it was his wife and explained to me how it takes the reader through her life of hurt and healing.
Immediately I told him it related to my life. It was almost as if God spit the words out of my mouth. Shocked and uplifted I told Michael O'Brien my story. He was touched and dedicated a song to me during the show.
I really appreciated his words of wisdom. Michael helped me realize that my purpose in life is to tell my story.

I want to dedicate my blog to Michael and his wife, Heidi for helping me find the strength to find my purpose in life.

I also dedicate my blog to my father and the Lord.

I want to additionally add a thank you to my brother for coming up with the blog idea.

May the Lord bless you with a wonderful day.

G-u-i-dance

Someone emailed this to me today and I thought it was so beautiful I needed to share it will all of you.

Dancing With God
When I meditated on the word  Guidance,
I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word.
I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing.When two people try to lead, nothing feels right.
The movement doesn't flow with the music,
and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead,
both bodies begin to flow with the music.
One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back
or by pressing Lightly in one direction or another.
It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully.
The dance takes surrender, willingness,
and attentiveness from one person
and gentle guidance and skill from the other.
My eyes drew back to the word  Guidance.
When I saw "G": I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i".
"God, "u" and "i" dance."
God, you, and I dance.
As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust
that I would get  guidance about my life.  

I became willing to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God's blessings
and mercies are upon you on this day and everyday.
May you abide in God, as God abides in you.
Dance together with God, trusting God to lead
and to guide you through each season of your life.  

This is my prayer for you. Share this with others. There is no cost but a lot of rewards; so let's continue to pray for one another. 

Crafty

I am in love with anything handmade with love.

I am constantly on the lookout for new websites and things I have never seen before.

I cannot wait to find something new.


Never forget to
Learn everyday
Laugh everyday
Love everyday

God Bless

Monopoly Memories

My father and I loved to play the Disney Monopoly.

One night there was a huge storm and all of our power went out. We were in the middle of an intense game of Disney Monopoly.

We lit some candles and brought a couple of flashlights out to the dining room (where we were playing).

Not long after, the lights came back on, but because we were having so much fun playing monopoly in the dark, we turned them back off and continued our game.

That was the best game of monopoly ever and I am pretty sure I won.

I hope one day I will play monopoly in Heaven with him.

College

Getting an early start at Gainesville State College.
I am about to go interview students about some deep topics.
Wish me luck.

If you would like to submit a comment to my question, I would love it!

The question is:
Why do you think rates of suicide are increasing at a steady rate?


God Bless,
Have a wonderful day!

When Life Gets Broken

Tonight I am giving in early.

Goodnight
and remember,
There is ALWAYS hope.

God is your hope.
Always have faith in Him.

This song is "When Life Gets Broken"

By: Michael O'Brien 

Christmas Memories

It was Christmastime and the whole family was in Florida at the grandparent house. They had a special present for me this year and I was so excited to get the gift!

I was six years old and wearing my cloud footie pajamas on Christmas morning.

They finally brought out my gift.

A small puppy! A Jack Russel Terrier only a few months old.

She has been in my life since then. 12 years as my best friend.

I named her Angel after my grandmother. My grandmother had just passed and because I knew she was an angel in Heaven, I named my dog Angel.

She is the best dog anyone could ask for.

When my parents divorced Angel had to live with my father because my mother could not stand the way she shed everywhere.

However, when my father passed we had to keep her here.

She follows my every move and waits for me when I leave.

Sometimes I see characteristics in her that my dad had. I see my father in her. Like he is a part of her somehow. I do not know what I would do without my baby girl, my puppy at heart, my angel.

Today she threw up blood. I am very worried about her. I set up an appointment for the vet tomorrow at 3 pm.

I hope everything turns out alright because losing her will be like losing my father all over again.

My the Lord be with me throughout this journey in life.

I know it sounds crazy but I love my dog like she is my child.

Please pray for us now.

Thank you.

I'll Rise

I have to wake up around 6 a.m. tomorrow.
I am sure many of us have to.
Today was a very stressful day,
I got nothing done
and overall the day was bad.
But we all have those days,
we cannot let it get to us.
We pray and move on.

Dear Lord,

Please help all the hurting tonight.
Answer the prayers of others and
do wonders in their life
along with mine
Thank you for dying on the cross
for our sins
I love you with my whole heart and soul
In Jesus' name I pray,
AMEN.

I leave you with a great song
by one of my favorite artist
and my role model.

Chocolate

One of Gods gift to the women of the world, chocolate.

I feel as if I need some right now.
To the cabinet I go.

News

Today I got a job at Five Guys, Burgers and Fries. I am pretty excited about it.
I start Friday!

However, all day today I have been having anxiety. It is the worst feeling ever.
It feels as if the walls are closing in on me.
Like my body will burst at any moment.
My head is pounding,
My heart beating super fast,
Like I am running a marathon,
When in reality I am only reading a book.
Why is this happening?

I am not sure but I will pray to God about it.
It is the only thing I can really do.

 

Echoing Angels

Sometimes when we go through something rough.

We feel the Lord.

Sometimes he puts us through Life

To get closer to your heart.

He is with you wherever you go.

Have Faith in Him.

"Those who Hope in the Lord

will renew their strength,

They will soar on wings 

like eagles."

Isaiah 40:31

My Brother

When I was young I was kept away
But then my life went in array
He came to me
When I was feeling pain
It was coming, the fast train
He was there but I couldn't see
He lifted me high

I felt like I could fly

He came to me

I was in relieve

It felt so good to have him by my side

When my father died

It felt like life was pointless

But he helped me realize

I had more time to live

More time to prosper

Time to succeed

I open my eyes 

and take the tough ride

Called My Life
With him always by my side

Journaling

Today Journaling with Paint popped up one my blogger list and I love what he writes about journaling.

Check it out @ http://awbrucesherman.blogspot.com/

Like he says, journal is important in the daily lives of any person. Even if it is a short note of how you felt that day.

Another thing journaling is good for is writing about experiences, prayers, and anything that possibly changes your day or even your life.

Journaling can be in many forms, writing, painting, sewing, taking pictures, making music anything you can think of. It is all of form of expressing yourself and getting your feelings out. It is art.

I journal everyday to my dad. I tell him how I am, what I did throughout the day, how I feel and then pray at the end. Journaling has really helped me get through my rough times.

If you journaled tonight, what would you write, paint, make, or take about?

Think about your day and how you've felt through the course of it.
Then, put down whatever thoughts come to your mind through everything.
You can do a combination. It is a great way to express yourself.

Freedom

God is Freedom.
Living life for Him
Consist of rewards greater than
Anything we could imagine.

Morning Dew

Ice is on my windshield. 

Dew is on the grass.

The sun is peaking throw the clouds.

What a lovely day the Lord has given to us. 

Don't Worry Now

Well tonight I leave you with this video 

from one of my favorite artists

it reminds me of my dad

the only man I've ever really loved 

well, so far. 

and the man in my life

who loved me more 

than anything else.

I love you daddy.

You'll always be in my heart. 

Andalusia

So far so good

Its like nothing has changed

Like I come over all the time

Bad Reception

Unfortunately in Andalusia Alabama the internet connection is low

I may not be blogging much this weekend

God Bless to everyone

Larger than Life

God is BIGGER than our problems.

Step aside,

Have faith in the Lord

And he will fix them.

Weekend Trip

Tomorrow I am heading down to Andalusia, Alabama to visit my grandparents. 

I don't have any idea how the trip will go. 

I have not seen them since the funeral. 

This is the first time I will be there without my father. 

Wish me luck. 

Memories

I ran in the door, hoping for good news about my father.

He was missing for three total days. We all kept calling his cell phone, always going to voicemail. All of us hoping he would eventually answer the calls. He never did. 

The police found him in a Day's Inn hotel room in Auburn, AL. A hotel my father and I stayed at when we went down for football games. 

He had committed suicide somewhere between the days of August 22nd and August 25th. 

It was August 25th when I came busting through the door. The air was depressing, the mood was depressing, everything was depressing to me. I stood in the doorway and I knew something was wrong. 

Still being positive I asked. At that moment my mother whispered these words, "I am very sorry but the police found your father in a hotel room this morning, he is dead." 

My phone slipped out of my hand. My body felt heavy. My head began to pound. Wet streams ran down my face. I couldn't move.

The news sank harder and faster into my body, into my heart. My world was spinning and I did not know what to do. 

I ran down the hallway and fell on the ground. At this point I did not care who was near me. My mother ran after me and my aunts called my name. I could barely understand what was happening. 

I began to scream, a terrifying sound. 

I began to hyperventilate.

I could not breath.

My best friend called me to hear what happened and my mom answered and gave her the terrifying news. She was at my side in a heartbeat comforting me.

I called for my brother, the only person who really understands me, besides God of course. He ran downstairs. I hugged him for what seemed like a lifetime, I did not want to let go. 

I needed away from the chaos for a few minutes. I walked outside to breath better and then went to my room, sat down and weeped. I did not know what else to do. 

All I could think of was my father and why he was taken from me. 

Why would God take someone so important from me?

Why would my father leave me?

How could he take his life? 

Did he even think about me? 

I asked these questions over and over, not knowing what else to think.

I did not want to believe it, I could not believe my father was really gone.

Crowded Thinking

My mother mentioned moving today. Getting a fresh new start. My brother would need to move out. We would sell the house and our things, most of them anyway. Things would be different. For the past couple of hours I have been looking at apartments and houses for rent.

So far I found one apartment, two bedrooms for $700 and it is very beautiful.
Then I found a house for rent at only $550. I will probably call tomorrow to get more details.

We would need to sell our house first. That will be extra hard considering the market. We will get around half of what we paid. But it would be for good change, right?

My world would change. I have lived in this house for nine years, I grew up with it.

But, the economy is terrible right now and my mother is having financial problems, as many other people. We cannot afford the house rent or the bills, food for four, or any other purchases. It is hard.

What do we do?

The only thing I can do now is PRAY.

Prayer is powerful.
His word is powerful.
God is powerful.

Blessings

I hope this song will touch you as it touches me.


Goodnight.

You are always in my heart Daddy.

Memories

I remember the times in my life that I did not see God by my side. They were very different times.

One day I went to the doctor and he told me I needed to lose a little weight. Do not get me wrong. I was not fat, but I did have some flab here and there. 

I took his statement too literal. 

I lost 35 pounds in about two months. Leaving me at a weight of 105. I am 5'3" and my recommended weight is 120, but not everyone is the same.

I looked like I could fall apart, as people said, and looking back on pictures I was definitely too skinny. Unfortunately at the time I saw myself very differently.

Looking in the mirror was like looking at Shamu the whale from Sea World.

I saw myself like this girl....

Anorexia caused many problems for my well being, but I had no idea.

I took laxatives, diet pills, threw up, missed meals and exercised strenuously for long periods of time. 

During the winter my fingers turned purple.

None of my clothes fit right. 

I was tired constantly. 

My body was all bone. 

People stop complementing me and started to become worried.

They asked me if I was okay.

Instead of "you look great," I got "you look sickly."

My stomach cramped more than ever.

I had no period, which will affect me for the rest of my life.

My grades dropped.

Depression took over my life.

I woke up every morning dreading the day and wondering why I was still in the world.

I was admitted to the hospital, the doctors did several tests, gave me some of the complications I would live with forever and then I was admitted to Summit Ridge, a mental facility. Summit Ridge is a memory I wish would go away, but I cannot change my past, only my future. I did not change, the hospital did not help and now I know why.

Because I was leaving God out of my life. 

However then I thought everything was okay until I began slipping back into the pattern of my old life. I was awakened by the news of my father, my best friend in the world. My father has changed my life forever. 

But everyday I thank the Lord for the love he has filled me with, the blessings he gives me everyday, and the healing granted to me by our forgiving God. 

I now view myself as a beautiful women, a women of God, a child of God, and I am stronger more now than ever.

Because of all the pills I now have stomach problems.

I get bad cramps when I eat sometimes.

My stomach constantly hurts and feels nauseated. 

Complications in pregnancy is expected. 

The things I did in my life will never leave me, but I can only look forward. 

Was it all worth it? 

Nope...

We are all creatures of God and all beautiful to Him. That is all that really matters in life.

Tough Times

I watch as my family fights over things of nonsense. It is one of the worst sites to see. So I pray to the Lord to watch over us and help the fighting to stop.

Dear Heavenly Father, 

I am coming to you tonight in a time of weary. 

My mother and brother just finished fighting again.

Over the same stuff as always.

Please watch over us in the times of trial.

Please help us grow with you.

Bring my brother close to you please. Show him he needs you more than ever.

Help my mother with patience. Heal the hurt inside of her. 

Heal the hurt of our entire family.

Keep us all safe tomorrow. 

I love you with all my heart.

Thank you for dying on the cross for us. 

Thank you for all the blessings I have in my life. 

You are an amazing God.

In Jesus name I pray, AMEN. 

Reading Memories

As I read my new book I think about the first time I ever read a thick novel.

I was in the second grade and Harry Potter had just come out. My dad bought it for me and told me he was going to read to me at night. I was so excited! After we had been reading for a while I asked him if I could try. We then read pages together. I struggled with the big vocabulary but he helped me by sounding it out and then telling me what it meant. My love for reading came from my father and I am very thankful for that. 

I miss those times and I wish we could make new memories.

But I cannot think like that, for the memories are all I have left. 

I love you dad. 

Favorite Verse

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their Strength

They will soar on wings like eagles

Isaiah 40:31

This verse is my favorite verse and the exact verse read at my Grandmother's and Father's funeral.

One day, when I thought my life was over and there was no hope, I opened my bible and landed on this very verse. The Lord was speaking to me as he still is now. I gained hope and now I have faith that the Lord will show me the way.

Getting Lost

Sometimes you want to give up. Not try anymore.
Life is too hard and it will never get better.
You feel lost and cannot find your way.
But it will get better.
You will find your way.
It can all be done through the Lord, Jesus Christ.

The Spirit of the Lord is on me,

Because he has anointed me

To preach good news to the poor.

He has sent me to proclaim freedom for

The prisioners and recovery of sight for the blind,

To release the oppressed, to proclaim

The year of the Lord’s favor.

Luke 4:18 & 19

This verse I first heard while reading a book, Blankets, Tea and Crazy People, By: Sandra Heidi Anne.
The verse is an inspiration to me because everyone is on the earth for a purpose and the Lord has something special for everyone. So do not give up because you are not done making a difference in this world. The people who surround you love and care about you, but most importantly God loves and cares about you. It is not too late for Our God is a forgiving God.

The Lord's Prayer

Good Night. Hope your tomorrow is blessed.

Losing Loved Ones

If you have ever lost a loved one, such as a family member or friend you know how much it affects you.


But things get better because you realize that the person you lost is only happy if you're happy.

Blog Purpose

The purpose of this blog is to talk about my father, Francis Allan Wiggle JR., and remember him not for what he did but the man he was. I love my father very much and it is so hard knowing he is not here but the Lord strengthens me.

Everyone is here for a purpose, everyone is supposed to make their mark on the world, everyone changes the world in some way, including you!

Do not take life for granted, but live life to the fullest of your ability. Live life for God and Yourself.

Suicide is not a funny matter and if you have ever thought about it or are thinking it now I hope my story can change your mind and make things easier to deal with.